A raw and unflinch­ing­ly hon­est mem­oir of one man’s midlife reck­on­ing and search to find his soul. As a child­hood shaped by trau­ma and ill­ness gave way to an illu­sion of adult suc­cess and pur­pose — mar­riage, father­hood, entre­pre­neur­ial achieve­ment — the author finds him­self grap­pling with the unshak­able feel­ing that he has lived a life shaped more by fear and sur­vival instincts than by inner truth. Trig­gered by divorce, pro­fes­sion­al loss, and a deep inner empti­ness, his search for peace leads him to psy­che­delics and a spir­i­tu­al awak­en­ing as he begins to heal old wounds, includ­ing the lin­ger­ing shad­ows of his Holo­caust-sur­vivor par­ents. He offers a com­pas­sion­ate invi­ta­tion for oth­ers — par­tic­u­lar­ly those in the sec­ond half of life — to ques­tion who they real­ly are beneath their busy iden­ti­ties and to reclaim the joy and still­ness of an authen­tic, present life.